Sunday, November 03, 2013

Move to Blanding? Are you sure?

We have moved to Blanding.  It has been the craziest thing ever.  I knew the Lord wanted me to put in the application so I thought to myself I would just do that much and try not to think about the next step.  I did the same with the interview, I said the interview went so well that I almost talked myself into thinking I wanted to go there!  When they offered me the job I locked myself in the bathroom and cried like a baby.  Anywho, the Lord has really blessed us in finding a place to live here (it is so hard to find rentals in Blanding, Steve Lovell helped me find a place that belongs to the district and is only $500 a month that they take right out of my check).  We live right next to the elementary school so the girls can just walk right next door even after I am gone.  B has to ride his bike to school but he is proud of how physically fit he is. :)
This week another blessing, we got an offer on our house in Ogden, so hoping it will sell within the next three weeks.  School is hard but I know I am supposed to be here, so I try to just hang in there.
Saturday Elias came down to see the kids so I had a free moment and decided to go to the temple in Monticello.  When I got there I saw a lady that teaches with me in Montezuma Creek.  Her son was going through in preparation for his mission and another girl from the branch in Montezuma Creek was going through for her mission.  They are both going to a mission in Mexico in the next few months.  It was a perfect session to stumble into.  The Monticello temple is so tiny and “cute.” ;)  There were only a few in the session, about 30-ish.  Well, I knew that my dad’s business partner, Pete Black, was the Branch President in Montezuma Creek.  Coming to Blanding has made me face many dragons that I had tucked far, far away.  In the back of my mind I kind of always blamed Pete for my dad’s stroke.  When I first moved here and my Bishop told me Pete was the Branch President tears came to my eyes, I was like, “whoa” I guess there are some unresolved issues there.  So, sitting in the temple I was nervous to see who would walk in.  Sure enough, in walked Pete Black.  I chuckled in my heart at how Heavenly Father does things, because who can be mad in the temple?  Sam Pugh also walked in who was a guy who worked at (and still works at) Recapture Metals forever.  It just took me back to the times when all partners and employees at Recapture got along and worked hard together to make it work.  I decided it was better to remember the good times rather than anything else.
In the Celestial room I was able to talk to Pete and his wife and I am grateful that I was able to get those weird blaming feelings out of the way.  It helped me remember that we are all just people trying to live the gospel the best we can.  Things happen along the way, but if Heavenly Father can forgive everyone (especially me) than I need to be able to forgive people.  
Living here has been weird, tackling one tucked away dragon at a time.  But it is good to grow, eh?  We are never too old to keep learning.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Hey I am so proud of you and how you live your life trying to do what the Lord wants of you. You will be blessed for it. Love you sis.

khd said...

I hope you know always and forever that you are one of my favorite people. I think of you often. You were a force for good in my life at a time that was very dark and unhappy. I wonder if you ever understood that. You may never read these words, but I hope you stumble upon them one day :) Not seeing you or talking to you has left a terrible hole in my life.
Bonnie